Becoming

So much time.
So much time trickled away unaware, thinking
it was the right thing: this trying to become
what I thought I was supposed to be.

So much time.
So much time lost, given away, sacrificed for nothing
because I was told I was supposed to –
that’s how we are supposed to be.

So little time.
So little time left for me now, to find myself. To become
who I was truly meant to be all along. And I wonder,
why have I been so afraid of discovering her?

So much time. And also,
So little.

3/20/24